B:
the internet kind of freaks me out
i.e.
people you know
blogging about all kinds of feelings or whatever
except usually not feelings
i don’t know
something about having access to people you don’t necessarily know well enough
for that access to be okay
Sid:
yeah
i find it sort of strange that i am pretty comfortable with the fact that a lot of super personal shit i’ve written is on the internet somewhere
yeah
i’m usually pretty okay with it too
but something about it is really unsettling
in the abstract
it can create really weird dynamics
in the real world
for sure
like every once in a while someone i know
but like, am not super tight with
will sort of sheepishly be like
hey
i read something of yourss
and it was really beautiful/moving/intense/familiar or whatever
and it makes me feel good but it is also super weird
yeah
now i have a really intense urge to blog this conversation
OH NO
hahahahahaha
the singularity
we have reached it
abandon ship
are we the rats
or the captains
or the orchestra
who knows
i’m going to blog this
if that’s cool
totally
it’s weird how much of what i write is about or entangled with a feeling of guilt about not writing
like, it makes me feel a little better to post something dumb, just because there are some words there that weren’t before
so, dumb things happen sometimes, oops.
no i get it
feeling bad about not writing
can be super overwhelming
so then you either don’t write
or write about how you can’t write
or write something totally silly / irrelevant
exactly
